For Nurin Jazlin

Nurin Jazlin's missing poster appeared at the lobby of my apartment building a few weeks before she was found.

Everyday I passed by the poster wondering when? when when? My 2 year old daughter kept asking "what happened to her?" So explained that the girl was missing and that her mummy and daddy are looking for her.

When a child goes missing for that long, what are the odds that she can be found safe and sound?

When the unidentified dead child's body was found and her photo appeared in the papers with the suggestion that it was Nurin Jazlin, I, like her parents just could not see the resemblance much more accept it.

Then when the DNA results confirmed it was Nurin Jazlin, I still couldn't accept it.

How could DNA be wrong, right?

On the day she was buried my husband told me to take down her poster. I took it down and kept it. That is the only tangible association I have of her. I hope I never have to see any more posters of missing children.

I don't know why Nurin Jazlin's death affects me so much. I can’t stop thinking of her.

I guess it's because I am a parent and this could happen to my child. I am guilty letting my girl run ahead of me in malls or when in a bookstore or toy shop, I let her explore so understand her mother's anguish, she assumed Nurin Jazlin went out with her older sister.

What I don't understand is why she was killed in such a horrific manner?

Can you imagine the pain and suffering Nurin Jazlin went through? This is what keeps me awake at night.

We need a system where a missing child can be found within hours. As Tembam, Nuraina and other bloggers have proposed - we need an Amber Alert for missing children in Malaysia and we need it now!

We can't wait for Datuk Sharizat, the Police etc to get their act together. We got to take control and set the alert ourselves.